Today was.....one of those days. It was a day that wore me out emotionally. I have one child that continually keeps me on my toes because she can be so challenging.....her attitude... wow.
Today I just didn't know how to deal with her. It seemed like all day long, there were hurt feelings, tears, yelling, stomping, hard hearts, unforgiveness, sassy attitudes. She's in a summer camp this week and I had to keep her home this afternoon. She was NOT happy and we delt with that initial reaction to the punishment for about an hour before she finally fell asleep in a lump in the guest room. She woke up better, but by the time it was 6:00, the attitude was back in full-swing. She admitted that she had done something to her sister that APPEARED to be helpful but that she was really doing it to make herself look better and her sister feel sad. She totally understood what she was doing and also admitted that she was-and is- not sorry and doesn't know why she wants to be unkind to her sister.
So how do you force a child to feel remorse? How do you make a little girl have a heart that wants to obey? I know, I know, I can't. So we pray. I have prayed so much today....with the offender, with the offended, by myself, all together.....I know God can penetrate her heart where I can't but I'm honestly scared that he won't. I'm scared about what this will look like in a 15 year old. I'm a little mad at her because it's not fair to me or the rest of my kids for her to be so selfish and just plain mean. We are all beginning to tip toe around her. I suggested to the offended daughter that she go and try to talk to her in a "non-whiney" voice. She didn't want to (and I didn't make her because I knew it was true) because she said she was afraid she would yell right in her face.
I'm going to go get in bed with a glass of wine and watch a movie. (it's Thursday night) So there.
I love love love to get comments and emails, but I'm going to ask that if anyone feels tempted to send me some "tips" on how to fix my daughter or advice about what I may be doing wrong, please refrain. I can't handle it.
night night!
btw....Eli is now sleeping 11 hours straight at night! Yahoooooo!